This year is the first, and it will be for many years to come. I really wish you could be here for raya. i hope you are. i miss your kueh tart. i miss your cooking. i miss your presence. i miss talking to you. i miss you,mum.  Dad miss you during raya. We all miss you. I wonder how are you doing now. I wonder how do you celebrate Hari Raya. Did you come visit us? I came crying to your grave on the first 2 days of raya. Did you feel my tears flowing right down my cheeks down to your grave? I want to make your grave look beautiful, like how you always make me look good every year. i love you mum.